So I'm not perfect. Revolutionary thought right? For me I have to tell myself that daily. Sometimes moment to moment. I am going to fail. I am not going to do things right. People will be disappointed in me. That is okay. Ok...Somewhere deep inside I find it a driving desire to not disappoint, or well I used to. I still struggle with that idea, but do you know what is amazing? When people love you through your brokenness. Now I don't want to beat a dead horse (uh) but I am astounded that people love me the way they do. Even though I am a screw-up, over-dramatic, extremely passionate, brutally honest, impatient and the list could go on and on in my strengths and weaknesses; they still love me. I think this is one of the reasons I am so honest with people...I am afraid they are going to find something out about me and then decide they don't really love me. Now I say one because I know it is not the only reason. I truly can't be any other way but transparent. I will communicate til I am blue in the face and then I will talk about how I am blue in the face and why I am blue. You get it? And here is a little shout out....For the people that I live with day in and day out...mostly the people I work with I love you very very much. You are like my second family. You know me really well. Embarassingly well. You make me laugh. You've seen my brokenness more recently than any others. And we fight the good fight together. Again...I LOVE YOU!
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