So this whole thing- writing for other people to read was founded on the basis of thankfulness. Through the past year of blinding brokenness, clarity did shine. Through that I realized I had lived most of my life not being grateful. Deep down in my spirit, joyful for everything you know? What was I thinking? I had been so blinded by my own greed and egocentric mentality that nothing seemed good enough. Then well....everything hit the fan. My selfishness over took me and I fell. I fell hard, face first. Ugly. Really ugly. Things got bad. I didn't recognize myself or what I was doing. My friends didn't know me. (And some just didn't care to and I don't blame them.) It was scary. But then somehow the Lord saved me. Without me even knowing how it happened. I woke up. And that wasn't pretty either, but it was glorious. And wounds from our destruction heal slowly and they leave scars, but how they serve as reminders. So why would I not be overwhelmingly thankful? I have people who know me- GRAND flaws and all. That is so rare. Genuinely rare. I am known and I have friends who still love me. Not still love me, but love me for my brokenness. All this to say...drink it in. Live life. Let people know you. More importantly get to know people. Pray to love them. There are few things more rewarding.
